"Well, most Asgardians would have to stop regarding us as a backwater first. Then it might be a fun trip." Phil's aware more think like Loki than think like Thor about Midgard. Only time will tell if that can be changed.
He smiles back. "Yeah, I forgive you. Next time, though, I'll make you fill out official apology forms. In triplicate."
"You have, more than once, wanted to throw all the paperwork on my desk on the floor so we could fuck on it. Don't pretend like you haven't."
Sex itself isn't a touchy subject now that Phil knows Clint's limits. If he wants to talk about it but not have it, that's fine. They'll get there eventually. Phil doesn't believe he'll die from blue balls.
His hand works just fine until Clint feels okay again.
"Because it was in the way, not because the paperwork itself was sexy. My pants look better on the floor than the paperwork." He bobs his brows. "Actually, come to think of it, I look better on the floor. If you get back to the desk and decide you need someone under it keeping you warm and cozy, you know who to call."
"That might be the only way to make a desk job bearable." Phil has some fairly strict lines about professionalism at work but maybe... well maybe when they're better they can break some of those.
He almost died. Clint got taken over. Who the hell cares about professionalism after all of that? If it's late enough no one would catch them...
"I would make you pick up the paperwork. Like I make you pick up your pants."
"I don't think there's anything I can to stop Stark commenting on my sex life." Phil is resigned to this. There's no way they can really hide a relationship from the Avengers. Stark's going to have a field day.
"Oh, that was flirting?" Phil squeezes his hand. "It's okay. We'll get there."
"I can write a performance review," he offers in mock seriousness. "Give you the points you need to work on."
The idea of going out to dinner again alone is enough to get Phil excited. They might look like two friends out to dinner given everything going on but that's fine. They'll be together which is really all Phil needs.
"I'll learn how to seduce you all over again. Don't give me too many pointers, or I'll never learn." He closes his eyes just to feel Phil's hand, trying not to feel anything awful about it. Feeling the difference in touch.
"I am really looking forward to that." That Clint is willing to close his eyes around Phil says a lot on top of everything he's explained and said tonight. He's glad Clint can try that, can give that.
"Let's see how you feel. If you're really worried you can sleep on the couch." But Phil would love for Clint to stay the night. With the air clear it's a lot easier for him to feel relaxed and at peace.
"I'm not against finishing this bottle of wine together." He picks up his mostly full glass and takes a sip. "It's good."
"I'm not opposed to sleeping on the couch if I feel like I have to. But it might be nice to try in bed first." He lifts his glass. "Wine first. Make it a sloppy awkward romantic night. Maybe it'll loosen me up. Or keep our nightmares at bay."
"Like our first date?" Phil brings up the memory because once again he had tried too hard and it had taken some time to untangle that mess he almost made. "Because I remember that as very awkward."
They had figured it out. They had figured this out. They were here after all this time.
"I'm lucky you're patient with me too." Phil laughs softly at himself. His romantic streak can be fairly ridiculous sometimes. "I think by now we can have a decent date without making fools of ourselves."
And when Phil is a dork, he's lucky that Clint finds it attractive. Or endearing.
"What can I say, you still managed to sweep me off my feet. Or pound me into submission to make the rest of it worthwhile." He waggles his glass in lieu of his hand. "One of those. Hard to say."
Phil ducks his head and chuckles softly. "You're usually better with actions instead of words."
He might be able to sweep Clint off his feet maybe once. Maybe not anymore after the surgery and physical therapy. "I'm secure enough in my masculinity to let you sweep me if you ever get in the mood."
"I can still promise I liked you for your personality first before your way with fucking did me in." Phil's always been terribly sweet and tender when he sets Handler Mode aside. Which was a blast to start to navigate as someone not used to sweet and tender in partners.
"But if you want physically swept off your feet, I might want a good reason. A timely rescue to swoop in. Kiss passionately while things explode in the distance."
Well, he likes being tender and sweet. He blames his romantic streak and Clint's rather adorable when he gets awkward about it. "It was my personality? Huh. For me it was your arms." He smiles slyly because he's teasing. The arms help but Phil's never dated anyone long for purely physical reasons.
"Avengers fieldwork might give you that chance. There's a lot of explosions involved."
"Being able to stand you holding my leash has its perks, who knew?"
He pulls his hand back, not for any discomfort but simply having enough of leaning across the table for the touch at the moment. "When, and it's definitely when, we start getting back into the sexy kind of intimacy, we'll probably have some new rules there, too, at least temporarily."
Clint's trust and autonomy were violated by what Loki had done. The sort of sex they had engaged in before required a lot of trust. It would take time to build that up again.
"I'll be satisfied just to have you in bed again."
"I'll probably have to--" He runs a hand through his hair, considering the path of that sentence and then ditching it to start again. "I'm kind of nervous to see your scars. Is that weird?"
"I don't always like looking at them either." Because they're new and fresh and not part of his body like the other ones he has. Phil deliberately looks at them to get comfortable with them.
"When you feel ready to look at them and touch them we'll start there."
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He smiles back. "Yeah, I forgive you. Next time, though, I'll make you fill out official apology forms. In triplicate."
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He might have to tweak his flirting and his sexy jokes if he is aware that sex itself is gonna be a touchy subject for a bit. But not right now!
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Sex itself isn't a touchy subject now that Phil knows Clint's limits. If he wants to talk about it but not have it, that's fine. They'll get there eventually. Phil doesn't believe he'll die from blue balls.
His hand works just fine until Clint feels okay again.
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He almost died. Clint got taken over. Who the hell cares about professionalism after all of that? If it's late enough no one would catch them...
"I would make you pick up the paperwork. Like I make you pick up your pants."
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In spite of the conversation, Clint's look is soft. "See? I flirt. Might miss being able to do anything about it, but I can still do that much."
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"Oh, that was flirting?" Phil squeezes his hand. "It's okay. We'll get there."
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The idea of going out to dinner again alone is enough to get Phil excited. They might look like two friends out to dinner given everything going on but that's fine. They'll be together which is really all Phil needs.
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"Thank you. For waiting for me."
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"I've waited for you before. I'll wait again."
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"I'm not against finishing this bottle of wine together." He picks up his mostly full glass and takes a sip. "It's good."
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They had figured it out. They had figured this out. They were here after all this time.
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And when Phil is a dork, he's lucky that Clint finds it attractive. Or endearing.
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He might be able to sweep Clint off his feet maybe once. Maybe not anymore after the surgery and physical therapy. "I'm secure enough in my masculinity to let you sweep me if you ever get in the mood."
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"But if you want physically swept off your feet, I might want a good reason. A timely rescue to swoop in. Kiss passionately while things explode in the distance."
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"Avengers fieldwork might give you that chance. There's a lot of explosions involved."
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He pulls his hand back, not for any discomfort but simply having enough of leaning across the table for the touch at the moment. "When, and it's definitely when, we start getting back into the sexy kind of intimacy, we'll probably have some new rules there, too, at least temporarily."
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Clint's trust and autonomy were violated by what Loki had done. The sort of sex they had engaged in before required a lot of trust. It would take time to build that up again.
"I'll be satisfied just to have you in bed again."
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"When you feel ready to look at them and touch them we'll start there."
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