[The incredulity bleeds through clearly. The arrow stays nocked, but he feels no immediate need to keep the string pulled anymore. Frank is standing and alive and not even bleeding. Like if he was actually wearing his vest. Which he isn't.]
There is not a soul on this planet that is happier you're still standing than I am, [he says, neither of them knowing there's at least one other--] but how the hell are you still standing?
( And you know something? Thinking about it — he thinks that might actually be the truth. Clint might actually be the person on this planet that would be most impacted by him dying. Nash might be sad, maybe see his ghost around, but there'd probably be some measure of relief that things got slightly less complicated for her. Fury might miss him, but they haven't known each other long. Murdock is Murdock, any opportunity to be an angsty little bitch is one he'll take, but that dynamic is fraught at the best of times. It occurs to him, suddenly, that this asshole might actually be his best friend. Well, shit.
That fleeting flash of understanding passes across his expression, and he sighs, ducking his gaze for a second — then glancing over, around, to make sure nobody's in the wings, lurking, looking.
And then he reaches down, and pulls the hem of his shirt up to nearly his collar. )
Somethin' happened. After I visited one of these fucking zones, something... I don't know.
( What lies underneath looks not entirely unlike a blackout tattoo, with slender lighter skin lines etching out the relief of a familiar skull. It's all very obviously musculature, it's skin, to a certain extent — but with a strange texture, a strange color, reminiscent of Kevlar. Beyond that, in the places where the vest doesn't cover, up near his shoulders, the newer wounds and scar tissue are knitted together with that same inky blackness. )
[Things change, sometimes, when out in the zones. His bow changed, yeah. Things, objects, those change. People?
God damn, apparently people also change. Is it temporary? Is there a fix? Does he want a fix?
Clint stares, bow lowering and lowering until he just puts the arrow away back in his quiver and tries to understand what he's seeing. Because it looks like a tattoo. It looks like several bottles of ink spilled on him and stained his skin, save for the parts that accentuate deliberate design. It only stops being uniform where the 'vest' would stop sitting, where it looks like someone's been stitching him together with thick black thread.
Listen. He isn't stupid. He can see 'in the shape of the vest' and 'got shot and didn't penetrate skin' and reach the conclusion. But that doesn't make it easier to really take in.
He takes the last couple of steps in to close the distance, a knot of consternation between his brows. It's skin but it's also not skin. His fingers reach out, hesitate only a fraction of an inch from Frank's skin, and then trace along his abdomen.]
( What he touches is definitely a physical, living body. Muscles twitch under Clint's fingers, an automatic unconscious tense and release, jumping the way abs do. It's warm like body heat, it's pliable enough, it's got give, or it would be if he pressed down with any real pressure. It's only slightly rougher than normal, a light texture not entirely unlike goosebumps. It's organic.
Frank waits patiently, passively, expression stoic as he studies Clint's face for any hints on what he might be thinking. Fury hadn't seemed to mind terribly, but damn, there's not much that fazes that woman. She's seen every fucking thing there is, it feels like. Clint's got a much more typical baseline — which is saying something, because he's a god damn alien-fighting Avenger and his baseline is in outer fucking space, but still.
If he's disgusted by it, or repulsed, or uncomfortable, or freaked out, a saner person would be, too. )
I don't know. ( He says again, just as lost as the first time, but quieter. ) Had to cut my shirt off after the trip because the vest was- it was sinking in in places. Wouldn't come off. Now it's- this.
[He's not really any of those things. Not disgusted or repulsed, at any rate. If there's any discomfort, it gets eased away by knowing that whatever's happened, it saved Frank's life. (And Clint's, by extension.) It is freaky, though. Like, just because he's done time travel and faced down aliens and fought a robot army on a flying city and ate pizza with a talking bipedal not-a-raccoon doesn't make this not freaky.
Frank clearly feels through it. Organic. Skin, muscle, nerve endings. He traces the outline of the skull partway and then pulls his hand back again.] This cuz of the soup? [Makes sense, if people are melding and sinking into their surroundings, maybe things start sinking into people, too.]
( His lips quirk — can't blame him for the question. )
Happened before the soup. ( But he gets why Clint thinks that might be a thing. This feels different, though. He thinks if this had been a soup thing, the vest merging into his skin like this might actually kill him. As he's seen it, the soup doesn't just merge with people seamlessly, it solidifies inside them, fazing two things together. Straight through organs, bones, and tissue. Straight into brain matter. It's horrifying. But either way- ) Feels an awful lot like getting shot, so it doesn't tickle.
( Nerve endings. He still feels it all. Feels almost identical to vest impact, so at least it's not as bad as actually taking the bullet. But still. He lowers the shirt, smooths it down. Rolls his tired shoulders out. )
What I really wanna do? Is get the hell outta soup.
I meant the--that, if that hurts, but yeah, guess taking five is gonna leave you feeling like shit.
So is dealing with soup. [Sledgehammer's useful. He's taking that with so it can go back in the mommyvan. Hell, he'll make room in his quiver for it. Because it doesn't matter if Frank's still standing. Clint's going to situate himself under one of his arms to sling around shoulders, take on at least some of his weight.] You start sinking again, I'll just leave your ass to the soup. [He won't.] See a guy about a horse, you are something else, you know that?
[Unfortunately, having someone that cares about you means getting bitched at for dumbshit behavior.]
( You know what? He appreciates the assist. He won't even bitch about Clint slipping under one of his arms like he's an invalid — he's been standing in soup for the better part of an hour, then taking five slugs to the core after beating on concrete? Not at his best. He leans heavily into the guy for the first couple steps, until his muscles unlock and he can straighten again, carried forth by momentum and spite combined. )
That's what they tell me. ( Wry; Clint has joined a long line of people well-versed in the art of bitching about everything Frank Castle does. He is an infuriating man, and a difficult one to love. For some reason, god knows why, a few stupid people choose to do it anyway. ) I'll bring you with next time.
( That last one — that's actually serious. He means it. He's not sure why; he's more into handling shit by himself, has been ever since the accident, but... for some reason, hell, he doesn't know, he feels the tug. The impulse. This shit would've gone smoother with Clint here. Clint probably would've noticed his ass sinking into the soup in the first place before shit got too bad. Maybe it's not so bad, accepting that he likes working with a partner. That he likes backup.
Not everything has to end the way shit did with Billy Russo.
He chews his tongue and, after a few steps, starts — )
I had this friend once... Somebody I served with. We did three tours. He was like my brother, shit, my kids called him Uncle Bill. He had my back. I haven't- ( He bites the inside of his cheek; his jaw works for a tic. ) I do what I do by myself for a reason. It wasn't because you're not good. You're the best. I'm just not used to having backup anymore.
[He is not going to complain about taking weight, and he isn't going to complain (this time) if Frank only wants to lean on him for a bit before the machismo kicks back in to drive him forward under his own power more.
It does make him feel better, to know that Frank will lean on him (figuratively) more in the future. They don't have to spend every outing together; god knows Clint does plenty of scavenging on his own as it is. Sometimes these raiders are just going to happen. But going hunting, or wandering into a particularly fraught area? He'd like a heads up. Hell, he'll even try not to be a hypocrite and extend the same offer to Frank.
Then there's the rest. The friend, the brother, the uncle. Something happened there. Reasons the Marine who had a band of brothers around him would choose to go at it lone wolf style. He thinks, briefly, about Auntie Nat, feels green around the gills about it, moves on from the thought.] I can be a real pain in the ass to shake. I'll grow on you like a weed; I'll just keep coming back if you try to push me away.
( Neither of them can really know how that statement's going to foreshadow events in the not-too-distant future. Here and now, in the meantime, while Frank is in a relatively healthy place and he's not actively shooting himself in the foot, he only scoffs out a soft, breathy laugh. )
Yeah, I'm startin' to get that. ( Sooner rather than later, the mommyvan (god damn you) is in sight. Sooner rather than later, he's tiredly thrusting his shit into the back — that hammer, his rifle. Sooner rather than later, he's slamming the hatch shut and leaning tiredly on the bumper to level Clint with an earnest look. ) Hey, Barton... Thanks. For coming to soup. Think we might be even.
( For that whole near-drowning kiss of life thing a few months back. )
Could be. Or maybe we'll be even when I bring you back from straight up not breathing. [There's part of him that's tempted to just insist on driving, but that'd be leaving his own car here, and god only knows when shit might turn soupy again. Man's exhausted, not half dead.] Lucky for both of us, I'm not exactly keeping track.
[He's never been that kind of guy. His numbers have always been in the red (bleeding, dripping, gushing red), and doing the right thing's never going to be about getting even about anything.]
'Sides, you saw the shooter coming. [Clint was a little busy being grateful Frank was alive. God damn it.] You knew you could take the hits. Dipshit could've taken out both of us if he was any good at his job, so.
[Thanks for the counter-save, is kind of what he's getting at.]
( And let them both just hope there's never a situation where Clint's ever gotta bring him back from the brink, not breathing, heart barely beating. If they could avoid getting that level of even at all costs, he'd appreciate that.
Anyway, his work out here is done. Another squad of raiders cleaned up, a bystander saved from their shitty attempt at a jump. He'll count it as a win, even if he did need a hand getting out of soup. He's ready to get the hell out of here.
Which brings him to his next pitch: )
Buy you a beer?
( He could go for a fucking drink. As it so happens, he knows a place — one that has him on the buy one, get one list for life, according to the bartender. If Clint takes him up on it, this'll be how he finally meets a girl named Nashua Whelan. )
Beer I don't have to pay for? I'd be stupid to turn that down.
[Something to quietly celebrate not dying. Something to take the edge off. Something not soup. Something that is the closest thing either of them can probably get to normal around here. There's no chance in hell Clint's going to want to meander to the Dome for hits or watching people get hit tonight or even the next several, he's pretty sure.
He cocks his head at Frank, then motions up and down to him.] Tell me you're gonna get cleaned up first. Pretty sure ripped jeans never came back in style.
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[The incredulity bleeds through clearly. The arrow stays nocked, but he feels no immediate need to keep the string pulled anymore. Frank is standing and alive and not even bleeding. Like if he was actually wearing his vest. Which he isn't.]
There is not a soul on this planet that is happier you're still standing than I am, [he says, neither of them knowing there's at least one other--] but how the hell are you still standing?
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That fleeting flash of understanding passes across his expression, and he sighs, ducking his gaze for a second — then glancing over, around, to make sure nobody's in the wings, lurking, looking.
And then he reaches down, and pulls the hem of his shirt up to nearly his collar. )
Somethin' happened. After I visited one of these fucking zones, something... I don't know.
( What lies underneath looks not entirely unlike a blackout tattoo, with slender lighter skin lines etching out the relief of a familiar skull. It's all very obviously musculature, it's skin, to a certain extent — but with a strange texture, a strange color, reminiscent of Kevlar. Beyond that, in the places where the vest doesn't cover, up near his shoulders, the newer wounds and scar tissue are knitted together with that same inky blackness. )
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God damn, apparently people also change. Is it temporary? Is there a fix? Does he want a fix?
Clint stares, bow lowering and lowering until he just puts the arrow away back in his quiver and tries to understand what he's seeing. Because it looks like a tattoo. It looks like several bottles of ink spilled on him and stained his skin, save for the parts that accentuate deliberate design. It only stops being uniform where the 'vest' would stop sitting, where it looks like someone's been stitching him together with thick black thread.
Listen. He isn't stupid. He can see 'in the shape of the vest' and 'got shot and didn't penetrate skin' and reach the conclusion. But that doesn't make it easier to really take in.
He takes the last couple of steps in to close the distance, a knot of consternation between his brows. It's skin but it's also not skin. His fingers reach out, hesitate only a fraction of an inch from Frank's skin, and then trace along his abdomen.]
What the fuck.
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Frank waits patiently, passively, expression stoic as he studies Clint's face for any hints on what he might be thinking. Fury hadn't seemed to mind terribly, but damn, there's not much that fazes that woman. She's seen every fucking thing there is, it feels like. Clint's got a much more typical baseline — which is saying something, because he's a god damn alien-fighting Avenger and his baseline is in outer fucking space, but still.
If he's disgusted by it, or repulsed, or uncomfortable, or freaked out, a saner person would be, too. )
I don't know. ( He says again, just as lost as the first time, but quieter. ) Had to cut my shirt off after the trip because the vest was- it was sinking in in places. Wouldn't come off. Now it's- this.
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Frank clearly feels through it. Organic. Skin, muscle, nerve endings. He traces the outline of the skull partway and then pulls his hand back again.] This cuz of the soup? [Makes sense, if people are melding and sinking into their surroundings, maybe things start sinking into people, too.]
Does it hurt? You okay?
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Happened before the soup. ( But he gets why Clint thinks that might be a thing. This feels different, though. He thinks if this had been a soup thing, the vest merging into his skin like this might actually kill him. As he's seen it, the soup doesn't just merge with people seamlessly, it solidifies inside them, fazing two things together. Straight through organs, bones, and tissue. Straight into brain matter. It's horrifying. But either way- ) Feels an awful lot like getting shot, so it doesn't tickle.
( Nerve endings. He still feels it all. Feels almost identical to vest impact, so at least it's not as bad as actually taking the bullet. But still. He lowers the shirt, smooths it down. Rolls his tired shoulders out. )
What I really wanna do? Is get the hell outta soup.
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So is dealing with soup. [Sledgehammer's useful. He's taking that with so it can go back in the mommyvan. Hell, he'll make room in his quiver for it. Because it doesn't matter if Frank's still standing. Clint's going to situate himself under one of his arms to sling around shoulders, take on at least some of his weight.] You start sinking again, I'll just leave your ass to the soup. [He won't.] See a guy about a horse, you are something else, you know that?
[Unfortunately, having someone that cares about you means getting bitched at for dumbshit behavior.]
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That's what they tell me. ( Wry; Clint has joined a long line of people well-versed in the art of bitching about everything Frank Castle does. He is an infuriating man, and a difficult one to love. For some reason, god knows why, a few stupid people choose to do it anyway. ) I'll bring you with next time.
( That last one — that's actually serious. He means it. He's not sure why; he's more into handling shit by himself, has been ever since the accident, but... for some reason, hell, he doesn't know, he feels the tug. The impulse. This shit would've gone smoother with Clint here. Clint probably would've noticed his ass sinking into the soup in the first place before shit got too bad. Maybe it's not so bad, accepting that he likes working with a partner. That he likes backup.
Not everything has to end the way shit did with Billy Russo.
He chews his tongue and, after a few steps, starts — )
I had this friend once... Somebody I served with. We did three tours. He was like my brother, shit, my kids called him Uncle Bill. He had my back. I haven't- ( He bites the inside of his cheek; his jaw works for a tic. ) I do what I do by myself for a reason. It wasn't because you're not good. You're the best. I'm just not used to having backup anymore.
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It does make him feel better, to know that Frank will lean on him (figuratively) more in the future. They don't have to spend every outing together; god knows Clint does plenty of scavenging on his own as it is. Sometimes these raiders are just going to happen. But going hunting, or wandering into a particularly fraught area? He'd like a heads up. Hell, he'll even try not to be a hypocrite and extend the same offer to Frank.
Then there's the rest. The friend, the brother, the uncle. Something happened there. Reasons the Marine who had a band of brothers around him would choose to go at it lone wolf style. He thinks, briefly, about Auntie Nat, feels green around the gills about it, moves on from the thought.] I can be a real pain in the ass to shake. I'll grow on you like a weed; I'll just keep coming back if you try to push me away.
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Yeah, I'm startin' to get that. ( Sooner rather than later, the mommyvan (god damn you) is in sight. Sooner rather than later, he's tiredly thrusting his shit into the back — that hammer, his rifle. Sooner rather than later, he's slamming the hatch shut and leaning tiredly on the bumper to level Clint with an earnest look. ) Hey, Barton... Thanks. For coming to soup. Think we might be even.
( For that whole near-drowning kiss of life thing a few months back. )
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[He's never been that kind of guy. His numbers have always been in the red (bleeding, dripping, gushing red), and doing the right thing's never going to be about getting even about anything.]
'Sides, you saw the shooter coming. [Clint was a little busy being grateful Frank was alive. God damn it.] You knew you could take the hits. Dipshit could've taken out both of us if he was any good at his job, so.
[Thanks for the counter-save, is kind of what he's getting at.]
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( And let them both just hope there's never a situation where Clint's ever gotta bring him back from the brink, not breathing, heart barely beating. If they could avoid getting that level of even at all costs, he'd appreciate that.
Anyway, his work out here is done. Another squad of raiders cleaned up, a bystander saved from their shitty attempt at a jump. He'll count it as a win, even if he did need a hand getting out of soup. He's ready to get the hell out of here.
Which brings him to his next pitch: )
Buy you a beer?
( He could go for a fucking drink. As it so happens, he knows a place — one that has him on the buy one, get one list for life, according to the bartender. If Clint takes him up on it, this'll be how he finally meets a girl named Nashua Whelan. )
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[Something to quietly celebrate not dying. Something to take the edge off. Something not soup. Something that is the closest thing either of them can probably get to normal around here. There's no chance in hell Clint's going to want to meander to the Dome for hits or watching people get hit tonight or even the next several, he's pretty sure.
He cocks his head at Frank, then motions up and down to him.] Tell me you're gonna get cleaned up first. Pretty sure ripped jeans never came back in style.
🎀
Not my fault you don't understand fashion.
( Before hopping into the driver's seat, pulling out, and lagging behind enough to follow Clint's car back onto the highway toward the city. )