[ there's actually a lot of feelings to unpack there. he didn't want clint to make a big deal out of the shop because it doesn't feel like his own thing. also, it feels weird to ask or expect anything of the avengers (yes, after nine months) and without his parents there, with life effectively on pause, it feels bad anyway. ]
[ that's what he tells himself and it's half a truth. the real one is what clint hits the nail on the head on: he doesn't think he should be. who he really is - billy - isn't someone he thinks should be. or did think. he's just stolen a life and hurt people. he shouldn't exist. ]
[ and yet. yet. this is shortly before his conversation with agatha so - no, he still thinks he shouldn't be. that hits home. seeing it in words. if it was another time not long from now he might type in an "i know". it's not so he doesn't and he stares at the words for too long a time. ]
[ he cries at some point, too, and he tells himself he's not sure why and then eventually he swallows everything back. and the text that comes back is a singular phrase that holds too much weight and not enough of an answer but he doesn't know what to say: ]
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brandingproblem) wrote2025-03-24 12:12 pm
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You're allowed to be celebrated.
1/2
[ honestly. ]
[ it gets a read checkmark for a very, very long time. ]
[ and then he starts typing and it stops. ]
[ and it goes back to read. ]
[ for an even longer time ]
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[ that's what he tells himself and it's half a truth. the real one is what clint hits the nail on the head on: he doesn't think he should be. who he really is - billy - isn't someone he thinks should be. or did think. he's just stolen a life and hurt people. he shouldn't exist. ]
[ and yet. yet. this is shortly before his conversation with agatha so - no, he still thinks he shouldn't be. that hits home. seeing it in words. if it was another time not long from now he might type in an "i know". it's not so he doesn't and he stares at the words for too long a time. ]
[ he cries at some point, too, and he tells himself he's not sure why and then eventually he swallows everything back. and the text that comes back is a singular phrase that holds too much weight and not enough of an answer but he doesn't know what to say: ]
thank you