[ said immediately after the awhile it takes clint to respond. and then there's a pause because ???? honestly there's two different dates it could be even ignoring the weirdness of reincarnation but we're settling on, ]
it's november 11th
which kind of but also not
[ he's not going to say he died on his birthday without prompting ]
[ there's actually a lot of feelings to unpack there. he didn't want clint to make a big deal out of the shop because it doesn't feel like his own thing. also, it feels weird to ask or expect anything of the avengers (yes, after nine months) and without his parents there, with life effectively on pause, it feels bad anyway. ]
[ that's what he tells himself and it's half a truth. the real one is what clint hits the nail on the head on: he doesn't think he should be. who he really is - billy - isn't someone he thinks should be. or did think. he's just stolen a life and hurt people. he shouldn't exist. ]
[ and yet. yet. this is shortly before his conversation with agatha so - no, he still thinks he shouldn't be. that hits home. seeing it in words. if it was another time not long from now he might type in an "i know". it's not so he doesn't and he stares at the words for too long a time. ]
[ he cries at some point, too, and he tells himself he's not sure why and then eventually he swallows everything back. and the text that comes back is a singular phrase that holds too much weight and not enough of an answer but he doesn't know what to say: ]
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brandingproblem) wrote2025-03-24 12:12 pm
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wait
he made a deal for fire fingers???
and yeah i know all about the hydra stuff
since i was switched and everything too
p sure he didn't see you around though
[ he's not going to say he died though. and also that the other him was too busy trying to rearrange his life nope ]
no i'll be okay but thanks
you can always drop by whenever
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He hasn't shown it off for a while don't worry about it
Oh good. I mean sucks. But good. At least we're all back to relative normal whatever that means.
Maybe I'll get you something nice as thanks for the runes.
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suddenly slightly worried about it tbh
🤔 no offense but i think anyone here was ever relatively normal
and you don't have to do that
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Also when
[Yeah, he hit send, but that last part is definitely something he should've deleted. There is a lot of [...] for like. A concerning amount of time.]
Is asking after your birthday a landmine?
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[ said immediately after the awhile it takes clint to respond. and then there's a pause because ???? honestly there's two different dates it could be even ignoring the weirdness of reincarnation but we're settling on, ]
it's november 11th
which kind of but also not
[ he's not going to say he died on his birthday without prompting ]
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You're allowed to be celebrated.
1/2
[ honestly. ]
[ it gets a read checkmark for a very, very long time. ]
[ and then he starts typing and it stops. ]
[ and it goes back to read. ]
[ for an even longer time ]
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[ that's what he tells himself and it's half a truth. the real one is what clint hits the nail on the head on: he doesn't think he should be. who he really is - billy - isn't someone he thinks should be. or did think. he's just stolen a life and hurt people. he shouldn't exist. ]
[ and yet. yet. this is shortly before his conversation with agatha so - no, he still thinks he shouldn't be. that hits home. seeing it in words. if it was another time not long from now he might type in an "i know". it's not so he doesn't and he stares at the words for too long a time. ]
[ he cries at some point, too, and he tells himself he's not sure why and then eventually he swallows everything back. and the text that comes back is a singular phrase that holds too much weight and not enough of an answer but he doesn't know what to say: ]
thank you