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Steve waits for Clint to clear the space completely, then rolls up and to his feet, and stretches out. "Yeah, always makes Natasha crazy too." He sounds apologetic. "Really drove Tony nuts." Not that everything about Steve didn't drive Tony nuts, and vice versa.

Once he's up and in the space he... moves past and around Clint. Not trying to crowd, but to grab a bottle of water out of the refrigerator. At least with Steve having done the shopping it's all easy prep and nutrient dense. "Makes me a little nuts once in a while, too. There's no real... way to make it work."

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"Anything that's gonna hurt you enough to stick around for a good while is something I think most of us aren't willing to do to you." So. Yeah. No good way to work it.

Though he rolls over the comment about Tony in his mind. Hm. A little drink. Slap some food together. Mull it over. After all this, he's more than earned a more pointed question or two. Hell, Steve had even called him out on it earlier, though he'd dodged it entirely.

Fuck it. Now's not the time to shy away from this shit.

"What'd Tony say when he got back?"

"And I don't much want any of you doing it to me." It would say terrible things about their mental health and how they felt about it.

Believe it or not, Clint, Steve's finding the pointed questions a pretty damn big relief. They're not necessarily comfortable, but it's not like they're all hanging in the air and making him navigate them, anyway.

Easier to address them and try to dodge them.

"Not a whole heck of a lot. He is firmly retired and... happy. Probably happier than he's been in his life." If that's not what Clint's asking, Steve is more than happy to redirect. But there's a lot of 'not comfortable' in just the fact that what Clint lost? Is exactly what Tony's building.

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"He just came back and fucked off without saying anything? Bullshit." Not that it's bullshit he fucked off; Clint knows that as empirical fact. It's just...of all people who would try and do their best, however that's defined, to try and keep the world safe in the face of overwhelming disaster, it's Mr. Armor Around The World that feels like would be near the top of that list.

Steve shrugs, slightly, like there's nothing in what Clint said or he's about to say that bothers him at all. Very little physical tension, nothing but blunt in his voice.

"Tony and I have never exactly had an... easy relationship. It got bad before Thanos. Since then it doesn't exist." Tony definitely blames Steve for their failure, and Steve doesn't blame Tony for that. "He might have some kind of plan he's working around the happy. It's possible he said something to somebody, but he didn't say it to me."

It just... it is what it is, Clint.

"I kinda figured if nothing else you'd have picked up that I didn't show up with the shield." Tony's still got it and as far as Steve's concerned should keep it. Something about deserving it and Captain America. Probably better off being a family heirloom.

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"So he came back and decided fuck all this and picked up his toys and went home to just be a recluse or whatever?" Which he has decided is different from what he did, is doing. Shh. "Maybe I should pay him a visit."

"Leave it alone, Clint. He's got every right to be mad at me, and he's got just as much right as anybody to fuck off and do what he needs to do to try and make something worthwhile out of the shit."

He isn't making any direct comparisons. For many reasons.

"Jesus, fine. He can be as mad about you about whatever shit he's decided to blame you for this time so long as it makes him happy."

Clint has stopped being mad at Tony for the things that happen, the sides that got chosen. It was hard to hold that grudge when incarceration turned into house arrest and a pretty cozy retirement.

He quirks a very light smile, at... all of that, actually. It's a little amused, but it's more affectionate than anything.

"You're a good guy." He means that with every earnest fiber of his being. "So is Tony. Some of what he blames me for is fair, some isn't, and none of it matters. You gonna be staying in for the next hour or two?"

He nearly chokes at being called a good guy. In that voice Steve gets when he means what he says, when he's being very deliberate about saying what he's saying, how he's saying, and who he's saying it to. His shoulders draw up, then back down again when the pull aches more than he'd like. He has to let lunch sit for a minute so he can get the appetite that so swiftly left him back.

Remember to breathe.

"Yeah." To answer the question while he stares at the countertop for a few seconds longer before making himself take another bite.

It doesn't take any kind of genius to see that tension or know why it's there. He isn't going to apologize for it, though. No matter how uncomfortable it is - to hear, or be reminded of it, or even just having somebody believing it - Steve hadn't been lying and he's not sorry he said it.

"Okay. I'm gonna see what I can do about shutting my brain off for a while, without drawing any attention to myself. Think about maybe leaving a note if you decide you can't stay put. Just so I know if you're coming back."

Worried about Clint bolting, still? A little. Still pulling on his shoes and grabbing his hat and sunglasses, though.

"You think I'm gonna leave you high and dry now, after all this? Nah, you're in it for the rest of this trip." Anything after is, of course, a mystery left up in the air. But running now wouldn't do much good. Steve knows the target, and he knows Clint's never been one to abandon a mission. He wouldn't go far.

"I'll be here."

Anything's possible. "All right. I'll handle my end of the deal and bring back dinner." Not that there's not some food still there.

He doesn't put any pressure behind it but puts a hand on Clint's bicep before sliding his glasses firmly on his face and heading out.

He'll be back - with food he picked up from a place down the street, that's still hot - at exactly the two hour mark. What did he do those two hours? Walk. Nothing more exciting or complicated than unobtrusive but constant motion at a reasonable pace.

Because fuck attention. Not this close to Clint's temporary place and plan going live.

Steve's still about the casual touching. The whole teddy bear thing didn't disperse that desire, apparently. Clint only looks at the hand, briefly, and not at Steve.

It feels like it means something, but he knows he's also being a (rightfully) paranoid fuck trying to find meaning in everything that might not have it. Stop. fucking. thinking about it.

Well, he did the cold to keep swelling down. But now it's time for hot to ease some of the stiffness. And a shower will get any of the rest of the blood, sweat, and dirt off. And it might distract him from Steve insisting on how good he is, distract him from brief touches that want to linger in his senses. Take in the sting of impact and the relief of warmth. And always remember to breathe.

He's shirtless again when Steve's back this time, apparently having said 'fuck it' to pulling a shirt back on. The deep, dark mottling of bruises are clear on display, but Clint's in the midst of doing some cleaning of his blade at the table. Making sure no dirt and dust and grime's in any of the mechanisms, making sure no blood is going to start crusting and rusting on the metal. He'll sharpen it and set himself in the right mindset before the mission, but this is simply weapon maintenance.

"Lemmie know if you need me to clear off the table."

Steve's look is what lingers this time, though at least it's mostly clinical and all about assessing those bruises. He's both satisfied by their presence and making damn sure nothing looks worse than he'd expect (or want) it to.

"Only if you need the room." He puts the bag on the counter, fishes out one of the take-out boxes and puts it off to the side of where Clint's working, then heads off into the bathroom to clean himself up some. Not a full shower, just washing his face and hands. Makes a mental note to shave when he does get that shower, and then heads back out.

Where he takes his food and just sits down on the floor. It's comfortable enough and isn't in Clint's way. "You get most of what you needed to do done while I was out?"

"Gonna do another good walk around, double check positions I scouted out before. Keep my ear to the ground in case of any last minute changes. But I can do that later." When it's darker, when it's more night, when it's more the conditions he's expecting.

He holds the blade up to the light, casting a keen eye over the edges. "How's it looking back there?" He could kind of make out some of the bruising, twisting over his shoulder to see in the mirror, but he trusts that if something looked worse, Steve would say something.

There's something about that blade that is still making Steve ever-so-slightly uneasy. It's not fear, or wariness, or even really emotional discomfort from Clint using it. Probably not the last anyway. Feels like something entirely in himself.

Since he can't explain it, he's going to keep ignoring it.

"Like I should've done a better job accounting for range of motion needed to use a sword," he admits, around bites of food. "But not bad enough for me to be worried about it, either."

"Glad you didn't have to pop anything out of a socket then or I'd really be in trouble. Only got so many throwing knives." He rolls his shoulders deliberately. It hurts like a bitch.

But nothing he's not expecting.

He runs a cloth one last time over the blade and, satisfied, slots it back into the handle-sheath.

"And using it one-handed is possible, sure, but you get less control and precision, easier to get unbalanced." He glances down at Steve as he starts to clean up, snorting a little. "You want a chair?"

"Nah. Now that I'm down here, it's just as easy to stay." And kind of give Clint some space, in direct contradiction to what he wants to do. "How much does it weigh?"

Maybe once he sees this fight, he'll be better equipped if this whole scenario plays out again. ...and he kind of expects it to, somehow.

"Extremely light. The samurai knew what they were about. Easy to draw one-handed, and if you were a little more uncouth, you used the sword in one hand and the sheath in the other. But you're still meant to use it in two hands primarily. Obviously I don't have to worry about a sheath dangling off me about it." He spins the handle on one finger before putting it down again. "Custom made. Obviously. Designing it to be seamless was the hard part." He could get into the details. Maybe one day he will. But he figures it won't be all that interesting.

"Might see best at a distance, but you know as well as anyone I'm just as good up close and personal."

"I'm going to sit on a roof and see what you're doing and how you're moving. The goal there's not for me to know you're good, it's so the next time this happens I know exactly what isn't gonna compromise you."

Is it because he's eager to do it? A little. Kind of. In a specific way. It really is mostly just that he can't see this playing out again unless he lets Clint go back to completely unsupported and that's not going to happen.

"Light's good."

"You're not gonna be my partner in this. You wanna do what I do, fine, we divide and conquer. Go to Uruguay while I'm in South Africa. If I'm boots on the ground in Indonesia, you can be in France. Wherever it feels necessary."

Is it this? Is this going to be the verbal fight that feels like it's been brewing since Steve showed up?

"I can't afford to even attempt what you're doing." That was the big realization of his walk. Wherein he wasn't actually out of his head. "No-one else can afford me to, either. Doesn't mean I'm not going to turn up again and if I do, I'd rather be better prepared to hand you your ass in a way that won't get in your way than relying on guess work."

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"You did great. You did exactly what you set out to do. I'm not too hurt I can't keep going. It'll hurt like a bitch, and I'm gonna be cursing at myself the whole damn time, but I can do it." He rubs a hand against his eyes for a moment before deciding, fuck it, hot food time. Still gonna argue, though. "I'll make a point to be extra careful about my chest. Anyone able to get a good solid shot in is probably gonna see me on the floor for a half second. I'm gonna be fine, though. And you can watch me be fine."

"Good." Because he intended to watch, anyway. Fun fact about Steve: He'll argue if he needs to, but he can turn into a goddamn brick wall there, too and just refuse. "Are you actually expecting me to try to jump in and take over, or are you just trying to get me to go away?"

Not doing that today, apparently. Hell the past couple.

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